In hopelessness and near despair
I cry to you, my Savior!
My guilt is more than I can bear,
I have not earned your favor.
You know me as I really am:
How much is truth,
how much is sham;
Why should you heed my pleading?
I see my heart's condition now,
My heart's diverse affections
Why do I love the things you loathe?
I'm torn in two directions:
Now prodigal, now pharisee,
O God, be merciful to me;
Who else but you can help me?
I tremble as I feel your hand,
Expecting retribution,
Yet hear no curse or reprimand,
But grace and absolution:
With you there is forgiveness, Lord,
You speak the sweet, consoling word,
And I am sure you love me!
Forgiven, free of guilt and shame,
Grant me some time to render
A gift to glorify your name,
Love to reflect your splendor:
This world must know what I have learned,
That you bestow what none has earned:
THE JOY OF FULL FORGIVENESS!
Words by Jaroslav J. Vajda
Music by Lee Dengler
Choir practice is a highlight of my week. We work on a wide variety of music and right now the one above is my favorite. The music is haunting, sad and in a minor key until you sing the word "absolution" when the chords become uplifting and in a major key. We spend our time practicing and then time in Bible study and prayer - what a sweet time of worship. The whole evening - worship in study, worship in prayer and worship in song.